March 12, 1995, 10:20 p.m.

Purity --

Before you do anything, you must CALL ME.

I know it must seem easy for me to say -- you think I can't possibly imagine what you're feeling. But I can. I know all about shame and secrets and wanting to die.

And I also know that the pain goes away and what's at the other side is brighter and more precious for the enduring. Think of your freedom, so close -- you will never be so free if you flee now, because you will have conceded something to their power and it will imprison you forever.

If you need to come here there is always room but please let's talk first.

Believe it or not, I do love you

Val